(talking to myself) "Take a deep breath and Stay calm".... I'm overwhelmed.
I'm making a quick trip to I.F. for the weekend and with my mom's help, go through boxes and make BIG decisions on what to take, what to put in storage and what of our stuff to give away :(
I'm so glad my mom will be there. I need her to help me get organized, to be there when I feel too overwhelmed and don't want to do anything, and to kill the spiders that have decided to make my basement a good place to settle in for the winter.
Since the time we moved into our house, 4 years ago, I haven't seen 1 single hobo spider. Last time I made the trip to I.F. I saw 3 in our basement, making their way up stairs....First thing I did was
freak out, then took desperate measures to prevent anything from crawling up my pant leg or in my shirt, my ensemble was....hmmmm...effective (thinking back on that, I really should have worn a hat. curly hair + spiders = could be something that would kill me. I know I'm being irrational but......I've had nightmares). I thought the only way to get rid of them was to take care of them myself...weapon: vacuum.......I was scared. I called my sister (who lives in Mtn. Home). Of course there wasn't any way for her to kill them for me but I needed someone to pump me up enough so
I could make the kill....she stated the obvious thing to do, call my brother who lives in I.F. AND that's what I did. 10pm my brother comes over and does the murderous deed. I am grateful.
There are still things up in the air....like if Cade and I will get to go to England when Alma has to report.
Cade needs a passport/visa. I need a passport/visa (apparently there is a different passport needed when you are living out of the U.S. I only have a tourist passport). Hopefully it doesn't take 6-12 months to get....or else we'll still be here and Alma will be there....sad.
I can't really fathom what it's going to be like living in another country...I've never been outside of the U.S. AND crossing over into Mexico from the California border doesn't really count in my book BUT it sure scared me...the whole 4 hours we were there and spending 3.40 hours trying to get back into California....
I'm sure it's going to be scary at first and I'll go through homesickness, nervousness, sadness but I think it's going to be AMAZING. It hasn't quiet settled in that I'll be thousands of miles away from home. Maybe when I get my husband back it finally will.